(fanfiction) Love Without a Name part 1

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cek : http://shiningstory.wordpress.com/2010/10/26/love-without-a-name-part-1/

Author : flamingT

Main Cast : Lee Jinki, Kim Nara, Choi Minho, Kim Kibum, Lee taemin, Kim Jonghyun

Kim Jonghyun SHINee dan Shin Se Kyung berpacaran!

SM Entertainment dan Aktor Namoo telah mengkonfirmasikan bahwa SHINee Jonghyun (21) dan aktris Shin Se Kyung (21) telah berpacaran selama kurang lebih sebulan! Meskipun jadwal mereka padat, keduanya telah berhasil untukbertemu satu sama lain terutama di jalanan dekat apartemen Shin Sekyung. Biasanya, mereka akan berjalan-jalan di sekitar taman nasional dan biasanya bertemu larut malam untuk menghindari fans Jonghyun. Ketika mereka tidak dapat bersama, berkomunikasi dua melalui panggilan SMS dan telepon, serta berjalan di pagi hari sebelum memulai aktivitas mereka.
Kedua ditemukan pada tanggal 20 ketika Jonghyun menunggunya di apartemennya.

(c.prib) Last Farewell

I don't wanna be without you boy (Got me slowly dying)
Where did we go wrong my boy (Why can't we keep on trying)
I don't wanna be without you boy (I gave my heart to you)
Going outta my mind, cuz I love you, I need you boy

Double E

lagi pengen cerita-cerita nih..
cerita soal si double e aja deh..

siapakah itu double e?'
double e ituh anak cowo kembar di sekolahan *kalo ada temennya yg baca, plis jgn diceritain nih postingan*  
kembar identik. pokoknya mirip persis..
temen-temen yg lain jarang bisa ngebedain antara kakanya or adenya.
tapi gue?
bisa
jadi, anggap aja yg kaka namanya e1 yg ade namanya e2


awal mulanya jadi kenal:
waktu ituh, waktu masih kelas sepuluh dan kelas gue ternyata sebelahan sama kelasnya e2 yg beda jurusan.
waktu pulang sekolah, gue sama temen-temen gue masih nangkring di depan kelas. anak-anak yang lain juga masih pada belom pulang.
gue sama temen gue lagi bernarsis-narsis ria di depan kelas, foto-foto.
waktu lagi action n temen gue siap mau motoin, kita-kita liat si e2 mau lewat sambil bawa gitar. waktu si e2 mau lewat, dia liat gue sama temen-temen gue mau di foto, eh dia stop bentar, tampangnya waktu itu asli lucu bgt.
makasih ya e2, udah mau ngertiin orang lagi narsis


lama..lama...lama.. selang beberapa hari kemudian, gue sama temen-temen gue heboh ngomongin tuh e2 dua. kasian waktu itu, mau lewat tapi keburu stop jalan soalnya yg didepan mau foto-foto.
kita coba cari tau namanya dan akhirnya nemu. tau kelas yang mana, yg ternyata sebelahan. dan tau bahwa dia ituh anak seangkatan n bukan kaka kelas kaya yg dikira sama temen gue sebelumnya.
gue sama temen-temen gue brasa nge fans sama dia. dan ternyata kita akhirnya juga tau kalo dia itu kembar! !
ahahahhahastaga.. 


dia sama kembarannya ituh beda jurusan.
pernah suatu hari, waktu istirahat. waktu itu gue udah tau dia kembar.
waktu lagi istirahat, gue masuk ke dalam kantin, gue ketemu ama kakanya si e1.
eeehh gila, m i r i p b a n g e t ! *yaiyalah*


waktu keluar kantin, ketemu sama adenya..
eh eh beruntung


lama kelamaan, gue suka banget liatin mereka berdua. sampe berharap bisa kenal dekat sama mereka berdua, walopun sampe sekarang juga belom kesampaian ..
awalnya gue suka sama adenya.. sampe waktu acara perpisahaan, adenya tampil di panggung main gitar sama band kelas dia, gue bela-belain pinjem kamera temen buat foto dia.
tapi lama kelamaan jadi suka sama kakanya. entah kenapa..


kalo gue milih e1, yang ada dipikiran gue adalah e2.
kalo gue milih e2, yang ada dipikiran gue adalah e1.
itu kata orang yg bisa ngeramal. *temen gue yang minta ramalin sama orang*
kalo gue sama e1, e2 ga suka.
kalo gue sama e2, e1 ga suka.
ribet dah..


tapi sekarang udah ga terlalu fanatik lagi nge fans nya  
walaupun kalo liat mereka berdua pasti seneng banget . ><

Akhir Cerita

Akhir Cerita Cinta dengan tuh kaka kelas cowo yang bernama Indra

Udah lama sms-an sama dia, ngomongin ini-itu.
kayaknya dia emang ga suka sama gue.
Ya sudahlah..relakan saja dia jadi milik orang lain..

Sampe sekarang pun masih temenan.. tapi rada-rada gimanaaaa gitu.
Sekarang dia udah punya pacar. Sekarang dia udah kuliah disalah satu universitas, fakultas kedokteran.
wew.
ngayal-ngayal kalo seandainya jadi isterinya...huahahaha..


tapi beberapa waktu yang lalu, mungkin udah hampir setahun. ada cewe ga jelas yang mengganggu hidupnya, hidup gue, dan hidup temen2nya..haha'
asli tuh cewe kayaknya udah sarap!psikopat kali. bilang kalo si indra ga mau balik sama dia, dia mau bunuh diri (katanya sih dia mantan pacarnya). Si Indra aja ga tau ituh cewe siapa..
lama kelaman tuh cewe bosen juga kali, ga terlalu digubris lagi sama kita2.

1 masalah lagi. ternyata si Indra g bisa sama gue, karena dia sukanya sama sahabat gue! Gue baru tau itu. Sahabat gue ga pernah bilang2 soal indra sama dia. Shit. Gak tau apa gimana rasanya sakit hati gue waktu itu?
perseteruan pun terjadi. walaupun gue ga mau punya musuh cuma gara-gara urusan cowo. Tapi itu sungguh terlalu!

Dan sekarang, gue mencoba menerima semuanya yg udah terjadi, ngelupain masalah itu dan semua tentang Indra. Toh sekarang juga emang udah ga ada rasa lagi.

-The End-

tahu kah kau darimana aku tahu?

ku tak suka dirimu

dirimu yang bagaikan tak melihat diriku ada

dirimu yang menganggapku hanya biasa

dirimu yang merasa aku sama saja

kau tak kenal diriku

diriku yang begitu inginkanmu

diriku yang tak bisa menggapaimu

diriku yang tak bisa mewujudkan mimpiku

tahukah kau?

aku sudah banyak tahu

tahu sesuatu yang kau tak tahu dari mana aku mengetahuinya?

Lies

Lying that you love me, lying that you miss me
Lying that you are coming back, all that you say are lies
Lying that you will watch out for me, lying that you cant live without me,
Why did you promise all these things if you were going to leave like this.
It has to be you, no, no, it can only be you.
Why do you push me away, why do you try to put my hand down.
How did this happen, how did it become like this.
I shouldn’t do this, I know, but I just can’t let you go.
Lying that you love me, lying that you miss me
Lying that you are coming back, all that you say are lies
Lying that you will watch out for me, lying that you cant live without me,
Why did you promise all these things if you were going to leave like this.
Even though I wish for this to be a dream, it’s no use.
(*Literally it means ‘Even though I wish for this to be a lie)
What should I do, what should I do when you leave.
Was it like this to begin with, cold-blooded love
(*Literally “love that leaves coldly”)
You are so bad, you are such a bad person,
Making me cry like this.
Lying that you love me, lying that you miss me
Lying that you are coming back, all that you say are lies
Lying that you will watch out for me, lying that you cant live without me,
Why did you promise all these things if you were going to leave like this.
Lying to me to leave, lying to me to not look back,
Lying to me to never look for you again, all of them are lies
Lying to me to forget you, lying to me we are all over.
No matter how many times I think it through, I cannot live without you, please come back.
I I I I feel like dying, I can’t do anything without you.
I I I I just keep crying, the word “goodbye” doesn’t come into my head
(*Literally “I cannot admit myself to say good bye”)
Again, my heart aches, I think I’m gonna go crazy.
Please come back, come back to me.

Obsession

My hands tremble more. I’ll lose my focus shortly
Why my broken legs standing here
I can’t even remember, I become scared

Where are you, who has laughing until just now

(Why) Have fun noises left me? You’re far away
(Why) Is it getting dim? These scars are like shackles

Curse me, curse me for letting go
My collapsed heart is screaming
Don’t throw me away, don’t leave me alone
Want you, I want you like crazy
Your lips that left me shouldn’t love
Don’t love me, I threw you away

All I wanted was simply to give you an endless love
I had no idea that more excessive love would strangle you
Those days when I was torn from my wounded heart
A love that lost its way, I fill up with tears

(Why) Is it that I still only bring out sad hellos
(Why) Just until today, don’t push me away

I hope that you’ll catch on
That I’m a different you
I even embrace your. Nightmare from last night
Don’t let go of my hand

Your side, your side that has become cold
Don’t leave me, my torn heart. Don’t become even further away
Although I’m holding your hand
Remember, end it, I can’t forget you
I won’t forget my pain of being thrown away
I can’t forget it, you gave it to me

Even the reason I love became a sin
The deep wounds slowly.

Burnt up and turned to ash
But to forget will be more painful than to lose it
As I kill my breath, I’m going to die. From the agony of goodbye
Bring it back to that moment

Don’t throw me away

I LOVE U

Your traces that my heart is filled with
Makes me able to breathe
When the long night is colored by the moonlight
Will the inescapable wait all end?
I wish for a miracle and ask and answer myself

Oh, I can’t tell you about me
Who wants to reach your heart
Like the starlight hidden behind the cold clouds
I love you, in the end, this painful confession
That lingers at the edge of my lips slide down in tears

This arrow that’s reached my heart
Feels like a part of my body now
Even though it hurts to death
I can’t remove you, who’s stuck in my heart
Because it’s love
Because for me, it’s love

*Even if I can’t have you
In the end, even when my heart is blocked
By the wall of sad connection
I love you, if it’s a place
where I can just watch you
Because you’re my everything

I stay up for so many nights
When the starlight becomes rain
That doesn’t stop like my tears
Remember that I loved you

It’s not tough, oh no
Because you have to be mine
In order for you to be you
Even if it hurts
Even if you make me cry
I love you